We have all been right where you are. I know it feels like you are alone in this place, and it may seem like nobody else understands what you have to deal with. But, even if you have already decided to quit and you are reading this with a closed mind. I beg of you, put that aside for the next 400 words. You can pick it back up at the end if you want to.
I think we always say “yes” to things, with the best intentions. We look at the sign-up sheet and think, “finally, this is exactly what I was looking for” we accept the job, commit to the task, or hand over our free time because we think it will fill the void we have. And, in some cases, we say “yes” out of necessity, whether it be financial or obligation. Some “yes’s” are enjoyable and others we know we will hate from day one. No matter which situation we fall into, you said “yes” to something and I want to remind you of all the “yes’s” that people have said to you in the past, the good ones and the bad ones.
To start, you said “yes” to yourself. From that moment you took your first breath, you were saying “yes” to life and “yes” to being you. But even before that, God said “yes” to you. You know this already and you may want to skip other this part but it really does matter. Because it means that your life (and even this aspect that you are thinking about dropping) has a purpose to it.
As you started to grow up, some kids at school said “yes” to playing with you, being your friend and getting to know you. Some people said “no” and I know how deeply that hurt you. But it was the group of those who said “yes” that made those hard times much easier.
Then, you graduated, moved away, or something happened and you had to say “goodbye” to those friends. It hurt so badly but something about that was beautiful. You knew that what you had with those people was real and genuine because it hurt so much to think of your daily life without them. And, while you wanted to say “no, I quit growing up” you knew you had to say “yes” to those changes.
The same process happened over and over and over again, just with a different lense. You got to say “yes” to extreme joys as well as hard times. You may have had to say “no” to some things you really wanted but you turned out better for it.
And I remind you of all of this, not to tell you that you need to see this through, but rather you need to see the purpose in this. Each decision we make affects the way we live. That is not meant to scare you away but rather draw you closer to the truth. As a Christian, you have the gift of a comforter in Heaven that loves you. He said “yes” to you before you even knew what “yes” meant. He wants to be included in this decision because, no matter what choice you make and no matter what changes that entails, He will still be with you. He is the constant and therefore the thing to cling to when change is on the horizon.
So this isn’t a plea for you to stay in the game or to throw in the towel, but rather a plea for you to slow down and make this decision with the Lord. That is all I ask.
XOXO, The Christian Prepster