I can never repay you for what you have given me. I can never write the words to describe the depth of your love. I can never fully comprehend the wonder of who you are.
Why would you leave all of the riches and glory of Heaven to come and seek me out? Why would you fight to bring peace when all we do in return is break the peace with our fighting? Why would you willingly die so that I could experience life?
I don’t understand why you love me as much as you do. It is the most intense and selfless action ever, yet I still “get used to it”. I am so sorry that I sometimes forget the weight of the price you paid to have my heart.
But I want to thank you for giving me a chance. That you for creating me and saving me. I don’t know what you see in me, but I am so thankful that you see something. I don’t understand why you would want to listen and even delight in my thoughts and my cries. I don’t understand how you can be so patient with me as I try to run my own life, time and time again.
I have never experienced a love like the love you have shown me. I can’t comprehend why you would die for a girl that has sinned against you and will continue to make mistakes and try to glorify herself. This love is something that no human can reproduce and therefore is a love that I can’t completely understand. Thank you for that.
But Lord, help me to show, even an ounce of that same love, to those around me. I know I will never be able to replicate the life you lived on this earth, but give me the strength and the power to try.
Thank you for challenging me and sticking with me through obstacles. Thank you for the hard seasons in my life. I know I was angry with you at one point… but, as always, you were 100% correct. Remind me of your faithfulness in the moments when I don’t take the time to thank you.
Thank you for each and every moment of my life, the good and the bad, because they all have shaped our relationship. Thank you for wanting all of me. You desire my joy as much as you desire to hear the ugliest parts of my heart. Thank you for seeing my scars as a beautiful part of who I am.
I will never understand why you loved me enough to die on the cross for me. I will never be able to understand why you would trade the riches for my heart, and why you still would pick me, to this day, but I will forever be thankful that you did.
I love you Jesus.
XOXO, The Christian Prepster