By the time this blog post blesses your screen, I will officially be enjoying my summer! Yesterday was my last day of school and although it was very sad to leave, I am excited for the summer and for the changes ahead of me (if you read Wednesday’s post… I did it, I took the jump).
At the end of the school year, I always love looking back and seeing how much I have changed. This year has been insane. So many ups and downs that I could have never ever expected. I have created new relationships, ended some, and found new “favorites” in life. I have taken some of my favorite pictures, lived some of my favorite moments, and cried some very impactful tears. Overall, this has been one of the best years of my life. I have been able to obey the Lord when it was really REALLY hard. I have learned to welcome change instead of run from it. Let me tell you, change is a very hard but fun addition to my life. I’m kinda a fan of change.
The biggest lesson I have learned this year is one that didn’t come easily. When God calls you, you must obey. This past year I have been called to two very hard things. In both instances, I knew the decision I had to make, but my heart wanted something else. In both cases, I had to deny myself and deny the desires of my heart in order to obey God.
But, in the words of one very influential teacher in my life, “The gospel is freedom and when we live the gospel, we live in freedom.” And that is so so so true. The same is true when we obey God. Even if you feel like obeying God may ruin your life (which I have felt because I am pretty dramatic) but guys!!!! When we obey God we become freer. After obeying the Lord when it felt life-shattering, I actually had this new sense of life. I lost the life I previously had and traded it for a life of freedom.
I don’t think I can explain the joy you receive when you know you are obeying God. It is just something you will have to experience for yourself. I hope, when the opportunity arises (which I know it will) you will be able to obey Him.
Another thing I learned this year is that confidence really does change things. I think we all can remember a time when we lacked self-confidence (maybe you’re living it right now) but with the number of changes that took place this year, I went through many seasons of low self-confidence. But, as the end of the school year has come and gone, I have been filled with a new confidence. I am now happy to say that I have a healthy amount of self-confidence. And boy, it changes EVERYTHING. I no longer see myself as this nerdy dweeb (even if I am haha) instead I see myself as a strong and loved daughter of God. This new confidence is less of a confidence in myself and my abilities, but rather a confidence in God’s mighty power and providence.
As we enter this fun summer season, I pray that you all will be able to obey the Lord. Even if you don’t want to or don’t believe you’ll be able to live if you do, it is worth it! Freedom is so worth it. It was worth it enough for God to sacrifice His own son for you, thus it is worth making the hard decision for the Lord.
Enjoy the sun!
XOXO, The Christian Prepster