Letting go of my talents

This post is a little different from others, but I had to share the most recent God encounter I had. So just stick with me… It will get good.

So much has happened this week it is hard for me to remember what I even did on Monday. No joke, I was trying to remember what I wore to school on Monday and still to this minute can’t remember. I have always liked being busy but this year, as my school year track season and overall life are coming to an end or a change, things are going full speed 24/7.

In addition to this crazy time, I am also starting to look into colleges and have the daunting task of my future hanging over my head. I do fairly well academically but I am definitely not going to amaze any colleges with my test scores, so I am depending heavily on scholarships. With all of that said, I am trying to trust God with all the big future stuff and just focus on making the most of the days I have here.

This past week I have been worried about what is to come. I have been worried about school, summer, my future, my friends, my family, and my relationships. Knowing that your days in a city are numbered really makes you start thinking.

For instance, today in my math class I realized that the group of people I spent most of my time with each day, won’t be as present in my life in the future. I’ll have to call them in order to talk to them instead of walk across a room. It’s a very sad thought.

Anyways, earlier this week was my Track & Field Sectional meet, which, for any none track people, is a large meet on the road to the State Track & Field meet. It is a pretty big deal and, as mentioned before, I am really counting on doing track in college and need to do well. I spent most of my day trying to both mentally prepare for the meet and also just live life because in the end, how well I do at a high school track meet is worthless.

Once I got to the meet I was in a really good place. Ready to give it my best but also realizing that if I don’t do well, God is still so good and my future is still in his hands. Once I was in this state of mind, I was able to just try my best and be happy with the outcome.

It was a BEAUTIFUL night and I had so much fun. I jumped the best I have ever jumped and was able to qualify for Regionals (another big meet I need to do well in, in order to go to state.)

An amazing thing happened at this track meet. Before every jump, before every attempt, and before every step, I was communicating with God. I was thinking, “God, please help me to clear this height, you know what I need to do in order to get into colleges and I fully trust you with this. Help me to clear this.. but if not, you are still SO good and I will praise you no matter what.” Honestly, that is word-for-word what I thought before each jump. People probably thought that I took a brief nap before each jump but I needed to remind myself that even though my performance in high jump is important for college and for this meet, no matter what God is still good. He doesn’t need to meet my expectations in order for me to praise Him.

And because I was constantly reminding myself of that, I was able to relax and just have fun. It was amazing and I was able to do more than I could have ever imagined.

After struggling with a height for a while, I finally got to the point where this next jump would make a lot of colleges interested. I looked at it, closed my eyes, and felt the Lord reassure me that he has a hope and a future planned out for me. I don’t need to get all worked up about my skills and my talents, I just needed to run in remembrance of who has my future in His hands.

And that is what made all of the difference. It was no longer about how well I could perform but how great God is, whether I win or lose, God is still good.

So this week, run in remembrance of who holds your future. Don’t rely on your own talent, but rather, rely on the God who has given you that talent. He knows how to use it way WAY better than we do.

XOXO, The Christian Prepster 

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2 thoughts on “Letting go of my talents

  1. This is such a lovely and encouraging post. It can be so hard trying to remember that God holds our future, we can get so caught up with the stress of life and the worry of education hat we lose sight of what really matter. Hope God continues to work in your life and that things go smoothly for college.

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