It feels like it has been forever since I got to sit down and blog; However, it has only been a matter of days. So many fun and exciting things have happened in those few days and I’m excited to share them with you all. Also, the wifi at our house hasn’t been working and… WE ARE OUT OF DATA!!! It has really been a struggle. Especially for a blogger… no having wifi is not easy.I feel like I haven’t interacted with any of you and I miss it… a lot.
Anyways, as I said before, this week has been so busy already and I feel like the next few weeks will look the same.
This was the first week of track… which is always a very fun and challenging time. I love being on a team with amazing people, but my free time takes a hit. I’m about to enter the most difficult trimester in school at the end of this month and when that hits, I will be running full speed 24/7.
I like to believe that I thrive in those types of situations. I thrive when people are counting on me and I thrive when I’m busy.
But sometimes I fail and fall and completely fall flat on my face. And it hurts so much. Why do we do that to ourselves? Why do we tell ourselves that we can never mess up or make mistakes?
If I could sit across the table from you I would tell you that you can mess up. You will mess up and it’s okay. You are human, meaning you are prone to mess up and make mistakes. Never ever beat yourself up for your mistakes.
I’m the worst one with this. I have never been good at forgiving myself. I know that God forgives me but somehow I struggle to forgive myself. I show grace to others but can’t give myself an ounce of grace.
With my schedule nearing its peak, I’ll be doing a lot more, meaning I’ll have many more chances to fail and mess up.
And every year I set goals for myself. Not normal goals like “eat healthier and run more”, but goals that improve me as a person and not just my outward appearance. Every year I strive to have better self-esteem and be nicer to myself.
Meaning that I need to forgive myself. I need to root for myself and honestly treat myself like Jesus would treat me.
I know that may sound odd at first but just go with me.
Jesus calls us to love others, forgive others, and show compassion to those around us. But why does that stop when we come face to face with ourselves?
Why does the compassion end just inches before we need to show compassion to ourselves? Why does the unconditional love suddenly become conditional when it relates to us?
You are a chosen and loved child of God. We need to believe that. We need to believe that we are loved and forgiven and exercise that love to ourselves.
This week, be your biggest cheerleader. Be your own self-motivator. Now to be clear, I’m not encouraging you to be selfish. Just encouraging you to love the person you are and love God’s creation. He made you for a reason. He made you for more than putting yourself down.
This may be a challenge for some of you. It may be asking a lot for you to love yourself. But I want you to try. I want you to try to love yourself and cheer yourself on. Because God’s creation is worth cheering for… because He is worth cheering for.
XOXO, The Christian Prepster