Some days are really hard. I’m nearing the end of my first trimester of this school year and find myself saying that almost every week. But it’s so true. Some days just aren’t beautiful (or at least in my head).
It’s hard to see God’s hand and purpose in those tough days, And I’m not writing this because I have the key to being joyful and finding purpose in those hard times. In fact, I’m writing this to comfort the person in the same position. You are not alone. If your weeks seem like they lack purpose and you can think of a million other jobs, activities, and ways to spend your time in a much more meaningful ways… then you and are facing the same situation as I am.
For the first time, I had a conversation with God about how I need help trusting that this is His best. I know I am here for a reason but I think there are so many opportunities and things here that could help me and create a platform to give him even more glory… and that’s the goal, right?
I feel like I am just stuck in the middle of two great times in my life. The past year has been amazing and I know the years to come will be amazing but I just am having a hard time with this month and the seemingly never-ending circumstances I’m in.
But, when I prayed with an incredibly honest heart… what I was feeling and asking him to move, I felt out of place, like I was not allowed to say those things to God, the creator of the world. But I was comforted to know that the Lord delights in me and wants me to come to him honestly in whatever season I am in.
I tried to still honor him and remind myself that he is holy and sovereign… but also open my heart up to him.
Because, when life isn’t beautiful I want to run to my heavenly father. When life is hard I want to run to my heavenly father. When life is happy I want to run to my heavenly father. Every day, no matter the situations… I want to run to my heavenly father.
And sometimes it’s easy. All I find myself doing is running towards God. But right now, I’m trying to run towards God when all I want to do lay down and let the world run right over me.
Truthfully… there is beauty in that. Beauty in knowing what’s best and doing that even when you don’t feel like it. Because as Christians we are supposed to act on what we know… not necessarily what we feel.
I fully believe that the words in the Bible are true and God always keeps his promises.
So when God says he is working for our good and that his will is best for our lives… I believe him. Even if I sometimes lose sight of it.
XOXO, The Christian Prepster