I have always struggled with fear and truthfully thought I had it all under control. But then it came for a long extended visit, without my approval. It came in a totally new form than I’ve ever seen before.
I used to be fearful of situations and anxious about plans and how things will get done. But this uninvited friend has started making its way into my relationships. I have started allowing myself to run down the “What If” path. What if they get hurt, what if I hurt them, what if they hurt me. What if they realize they don’t want my friends anymore, what if they stop caring. What if I mess up and lose them.
I hate this. Because I will talk myself into a hole and bury myself in my own imagination. I have cried the most I have ever cried this year and I think it’s because I am letting fear play a major role in my relationships.
And I’d love to sit here and say that I know how to kick fear from your life but I have no idea, obviously, or else wouldn’t be struggling so much.
But I do want to tell you that the scenarios you think up in your head hold no weight. Don’t trick yourself into thinking that you’re not worth friendship. Don’t allow yourself to run full speed down the “what if” path because it only leads to emotional, physical, and spiritual destruction. It not only affects you, it also affects the people in this relationship with you.
People can tell when you don’t trust them and when you’re putting the relationship on eggshells and tip- toeing around all the time.
I want to be vulnerable and to allow people to get into God-glorifying friendships and relationships with me. So fear needs to mosey on outta here. I have no clue if any of you are seeing this in your own lives but I hope this post can meet you wherever you are. Because no matter what struggle you’re facing right now, you’re not alone.
Fear needs no place in our lives. As Christ followers we have hope… we don’t need fear. I know it’s hard and I know it will take all we have some days. But I’m doing it too, I’m struggling and finding a way out of this trap.
XOXO, The Christian Prepster