As humans we have this deep craving to be happy all the time. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be cheerful and smiley all the time… but if you are anything like me, I’m not always happy and it irritates me.
I want to be the girl who always has a smile on her face and is secure enough in who she is and who’s she is, to be able to be vulnerable. I want to be the girl who doesn’t have to sometimes force a smile on her face.
Now I am not saying that I am never happy and am drowning in deep sorrow, because that is not me at all. Just some days are hard. More hard than happy.
But you know what, I am tired of saying, “I want to be the girl…” I’m tired of wishing I was better or the girl I dream of being. It is time for me to start becoming her, start praying over my heart and start getting secure in who I am.
If you are in the same boat as me, hold on because this could be a bumpy ride. I’ve talked a lot lately about the future and our aspirations for ourselves. And I know that is not by accident. I think the Lord is telling me it’s time to stop wishing and writing about these things and actually start making them happen.
I don’t know how to become the girl I want to be, I have no idea how to become more secure in who I am. But I do know one thing…
The God of Esther, Ruth, Mary, and Abigail… is the exact same God as the one I can always talk to. The God of David, Job, and Paul is the same God who created me.
So here is to becoming better versions of ourselves. Here’s to wanting more from life. Here’s to accepting the challenge.
But I want you to remember… even when we can’t seem to put a smile on our face, remember that we have the Joy of our Lord. We ALWAYS have a reason to be thankful and joyful.
XOXO, The Christian Prepster
P.S. Next week I am going on a Mission trip and won’t be able to blog. So I’ll be back in two weeks!
Love you all!